Expectations and trying to meet them

One of my professors once made me repeat a plate and you'd think it was because it was unacceptable but it wasn't. The fact was, he had graded 2 out of the 3 a 96 and the third, he made repeat because he didn't want the third one to bring down the grades I had gotten from the other two. He said, I'm making you repeat this because I know you can make it a 96 just like the other two. 

Another one of my professors convinced me that if I resubmitted, I could turn a 98 into a 100 and I did. The next time I was trying to turn a 96 to a 100, he told not to and to stop being a perfectionist. Ya, it was confusing but I knew that all he wanted was for me to stop being so frantic about grades. It wasn't about getting high scores. It was finding out your potential.

Never have I encountered professors that didn't judge you based on your scores but rather, based on what they see your capabilities can be. In PSID, I've learned that you're not scored because you perfected the plate but rather, because they see that you used up all your skills to perfect it. A plate done out of requirement is not what they're looking for but rather a plate done out of skill. Its not about submitting something perfect, it was about submitting something you know the student really exerted effort and research on.

I've been struggling a lot lately and still trying to figure out what my professor really wants. Its difficult and discouraging to get low grades but you know they're only doing this to push you to try hard and improve. I've been planning to make this week my redemption and it starts today. I hope that despite the fallbacks, I'll be able to finally get myself on track. One step at a time. Keep trying. FOCUS. 

"Keeping in mind that all they're expecting is what they know I am capable of and hoping I deliver."